When is the last time u feel "enlightened"? For me, its been very very long but today, i am somehow enlightened by a friend, a very good friend =)

I think i just have to admit that i am look damn bad these days since almost ALL my friends are telling me that.. =x
this is the most common phrase "have u been working late again? u looked damn tired!", they have been expressing their love for me in a very different way too, like " PLEASE GO HOME NOW, NOW!!" wahaha

Obviously everyone knows that there is a problem between me and my work, something is wrong someway, but where? yy is not the same old yy anymore, can u imagine, my last complete korean drama is actually coffee prince? last half-watched english drama is heroes (season 1 only lor!) and prison break 2 (which i borrow from chole for a zillion years alr!)

yesh, xiuping remind me all the answers to these that boss had already identified for me long time ago...

Yup, sad to say but i have to declare, i am the culprit of over-working myself.

Reminder 1. Learn to let go
I have been taking ppl's work like mine, spending too much time thinking for others but not for myself. I aspire to answer all the enquiries shoot to me (my phone rings like every 5 mins), to clear all the emails before i leave the office (i have an average of 100 emails each day), to clear all my mails everyday too (average of 3 letters each day).

But most of the time, the requestors themselves could have solve the problems w/o coming to me! Maybe its because i started as a temp, thus i felt obliged to do whatever that is thrown to me, ,,,even now,,,, which is very wrong! I shouldnt be spoon-feeding them any more, or rather i should be worrying for them anymore.

Reminder 2. Juggling my crystal and rubber balls
Then will everyone change their opinion of me? No longer the kind little girl? I am not exactly willing to unleash the ugly side of me, but apparently there isnt a choice for this. eventually, i will be too worn out to treat everyone so nicely. Thus before i collapse, i should learn to differentiate the degree of importance in every matters. yes, not everything will required my tender-loving-care, some things i should just HACK-CARE.

Reminder 3. Where do u see urself 5 yrs down the road?
Beside looking tired, xp can sense that i am lost too. Worst than the time when i just graduated. i have to admit, the level of uncertainty and aimlessness is really higher than before. During my coffee with boss, i really cant answer this qn. "At home watching dvds would be perfect" i tot to myself =x
ya, we have been whining all sorts of excuses about no job satisfaction... blah... But do u really know what u want? I don't. I don't think i will ever know too since this is one of the qn that have been bugging me since JC. But she's right and i agree, maybe the motivation we need, the satisfaction that we are looking for, the joy in working will only be there when we are clear about what we want.

Haiz, what can i say? Boss is right, probaly always right. i am really thankful for the opportunities given and i believe the only way to prove that she is right again (in hiring me!) is to start changing myself.

p/s: believe me, the day will come where i leave at 6.15pm SHARP!

The crowd, the anticipation, the adrenaline pumping, the screams... wow...
The preparation for that impt night, with xy's PSP playing away...

!!!!!!

Recharging ourselves with McDonald's!
With my DongBang Hairclips...
The Queue! Everyone waiting to enter the concert hall...
Then, finally we are in. Everyone is equally excited =) It totally feels lile you re in a big playground. Everyone is running around, everyone is screaming for them, everyone is smiling away, everyone is holding red lightsticks.....

U-Know's Sexy Back~~

Its like one of the most happening, joyful and fun night. We are THAT close yet that far from them. Well, at least we know Changmin is very goodlooking (wow!), Jaejoong is as pretty as u see him everywhere (forever no.1), Uknow is very friendly (raise in ranking), Xiah is better looking than on screen (his singing is powerful de!), well Micky is "one last cry~~~" de... =x
Aftermath of concert... zhi lian.. hahahha

"Red is for Dong Bang, Dong Bang is LOVE!"

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In case you are wondering what else we did there.. well, nth much actually..haha

There! We are back in Singapore after a 5d4n trip there. i have to say, its the first time i actuallylook forward to coming back. I miss Singapore! But not my life here definitely.. oops..
And here's the best things that i have brought back, a comic book, Twiggy's notebook... ...

Memories with him in it ... =)